Company?

Do you ever just have one of those days, where you look at yourself and you feel fat, imperfect, and just boring? That was me today, or rather everyday after 6th bell. My 6th bell is my math class, but we don’t really do any math… It would be better if I just had a study hall. Either way I have no friends in my class. My class is actually full of kids who could care less about school. Constant gossipers, constant flirters… the popular/reckless  kids. We live in such opposite worlds that I never know what to say. I sit quietly and doodle, probably with an extremely agitated look on my face, while I feel either the harsh stares or the utter sense of them ignoring me. Needless to say it’s a big hit on my self-esteem even if I don’t like them. In those 45 minutes, I see all of my flaws and want nothing more than to change them. In my loneliness, maybe a hallucination I experienced, but today I saw Snow White stand next to me for a moment and place her hand on me, smiling and saying, “It’s alright. You can change, if you want to.” In those few words, I felt comforted. A strange phenomenon maybe, but I truly believe I can change if I want to. Now, that doesn’t mean I’m going to become one of those very people that made me feel insecure, but I will become a better person, one that won’t be shaken by the people around me. Thanks Snow White, even if you were a hallucination.

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